PRETTY FUCKING INUNDATED RIGHT NOW.
Two months ago I was extremely excited about the approaching hectic summer.. and now it's here, and it's been here for a while.. and to be honest, it's still super exciting.. but FUCK, did I underestimate it-- Run-on sentence of the century, or what? Too bad I've been exhausting my brain cells with GRE vocabulary concepts and frankly don't give a fuck :)
As my GRE class neared its end tonight, my professor began discussing tips for soon-to-be test-takers (aka ME)-- instead of offering some relief as I now had new knowledge on how to better prepare for the test that determines my life, her speech had the alternate effect and I felt suddenly ambushed by all my current responsibilities and duties.
Working a full-time job, taking the last classes toward my bachelor's degree, taking an extra course to prep for the GRE, and volunteering at a research lab at my university= 64 hours (including commute) out of 120 hours in a work week, 40 of which are supposed to be spent sleeping (yeah riighttt!), leaving me spending 80% of my waking hours completely swamped with shit to do.. and that other 20% to study pretty much eliminating any possible down time.
Those who know me know that I am definitely not one to complain about my life-- in fact, I hate people who don't appreciate life and whine about it all the time-- so it is rare for me to even be talking like this, but I guess we're all human and need to vent from time to time.
Thankfully, I am feeling extremely accomplished at the end of these hectic days and have been pretty good at managing my time well. I keep a meticulous agenda that keeps me on track and more responsible and better capable of handling 790483290 tasks in one week, or even a day. The skills I'm acquiring now with the peace of mind of having my wonderful parents able and ready to pick me back up at any given fuck-up will be highly beneficial to me later on when I don't have that lifeline.
So all of that probably explains my absence on my blog.. which now has a new name!!-- WHY THE FUCK NOT. Funny how I just spoke about how anxious I was for "postgrad" to be more fitting, when all along it did not accomplish the scope of my blog. I'll get more into it later.. but pretty much why the fuck not captures the essence of most of my blog ideas as it is a question that was never answered throughout my childhood. The whole idea behind the postgrad title was based on this whole self-discovery process that is essentially unraveling through the answering of this question in a variety of aspects in my life.
Starting today, I will make an effort to blog once a day-- factoring this into my 20% of leftover-but-not-really-leftover-time; it is quite relaxing :) And even though I've been MIA, I always do keep my blog in mind and jot down ideas as they come to me--
- my changing relationship with my brother
- drastic situations make people show true feelings-- and that's stupid
- why I love giving to the homeless
- learning to change my own tire!
- my promotion at work + all the other fabulous things about my job
- new relationship outlook
- friendship varying incentives
I look forward to blogging more! Gotta get some of this stuff out of my head. |
