figuring it out |
I used to think I had everything figured out, but I guess that's the case with most people. I've never been much into expressing myself through writing, but changes in my life the past couple of years have driven me to reconsider a lot of what I've grown up believing to be true-- I figured writing down everything that goes on in my head could provide some sort of order to all the clutter up there.
I think a lot about the younger version of myself who had a completely different outlook on life than the more recent me does. We all change as we grow older and experience things in life that gradually push us farther and farther away from the innocent, unworldly, yet jovial way of of thinking.
I hadn't realized the extent to which we are molded by our experiences until I began feeling this recent overload of conflicting thoughts. I thought I had all my ideals in place and my morals set in stone-- that is, until I realized how extremely naive and close-minded I really was.I found myself straying from my previous conservative outlook as my college years progressed, something that even as a mere thought is beyond frightening to my overly-traditional family. Now that I'm nearing the end of those 4 hectic years, I find myself at odds with most of the ideas that constitute my upbringing. I'm probably not even going to make sense a lot of times in this blog.. so we'll see if it provides some sort of resolution to this cognitive dissonance.
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Sarcasm makes up about 90% of my speech. I was born into a Catholic family and currently identify as none of the above. I've lived a sheltered life that I am currently in the process of de-sheltering. I love helping people, though I don't believe in the existence of altruism.
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